Question asked by Heena
Hi,
I have been undergoing financial problems and family problems.
I do pray regularly. I watched the video on Teaching on Karma and your mind stream.
My educational background is poor as I did not go university hence my career opportunities are less to null and also in the past jobs that i worked in, my positions have always been a junior level trainee most of the time as a consultant or administrative assistant or P.A assistant. Also the bosses made me do a lot of non-dharmic activities to keep my job. It physically and mentally messed me up as I have always been or tried to do what is in line with dharma but if the bosses were mean and threatening me, i had to do bad things just to bring satisfaction to them and for me to have peace during the day. These events have brought me to great depression.
I know sitting in depression and not doing good karma as per the video will only attract negative karma. What do I do? I have tried to apply for new jobs, the kind that i have always dreamed of since i was a child. But I don't know how to approach this. I have given up, it's sad to say as I also feel very tired now of all the pain, suffering and exploitation and belittling from my family especially mother that i am not good enough and will never be.
How do i deal with this?
Dear Heena,
I am sorry to read about your current situation. If you will allow me i would like to make some suggestions.
1. You first need to overcome your depression in order to move ahead. If you engage in the practice of Lama Tsongkhapa sincerely you will see your depression lift. This should be coupled with reading and study.
H.E. Tsem Rinpoche has given a commentary to this practice available to watch here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dd1jQnEwNv4.
There is a written commentary to the practice here: http://www.vajrasecrets.com/tsongkhapa-a-simple-guide-to-a-powerful-practice
This blog itself has a lot of information on the practice, https://www.tsemrinpoche.com/tsem-tulku-rinpoche/category/tsongkhapa.
Doing this practice sincerely is very effective in helping people with depression.
2. If you have engaged in bad actions, then you need to purify the karma to ensure that it does not effect you in the future. You can do this by engaging in purification practices such as Vajrasattva mantra recitation, recitation of the 35 Confessional Buddhas, or recitation of the Kawang Prayer of Dorje Shugden. This last one ties in with the third point.
3. You can engage in the practice of Dorje Shugden to clear the obstacles you are facing in regards to finding a better job. you can find the prayers here: https://www.tsemrinpoche.com/tsem-tulku-rinpoche/buddhas-dharma/dorje-shugden-retreat-a-powerful-practice-to-fulfill-wishes.html
I pray that this helps you.