Question asked by Jason
recently i was doing calm abiding meditation and i noticed that the sensations during the meditation were, to put it in cruder terms, literally orgasmic or orgasm like but at the same time not like an orgasm . Although it was not like normal orgasm it was the entire body and a sense of peace, calm and "orgasm" like energy ( sorry i don't know who to describe this sensation) remained through out the meditation. The visualization i used was the merit field… What is happening… am i going crazy or possessed
Dear Jason,
From what you have written, no you are not going crazy or being possessed. When you progress in regular meditation many feelings both emotional and physical arise to help you deal with them. In this case when you mediated, these physical feelings arose. There are many ways to counter these feelings while meditating and you shouldn’t get caught up in these feelings or fixate on them. Instead you should bring your attention back to the focus of your meditation, in this case it should be the visualisation of the merit field.
In order to deepen your practice, you should learn up from the meditation section of Liberation in the Palm of Your Hand by Pabongka Rinpoche. If you wish to learn even further then you can learn from the Calm Abiding section from Lama Tsongkhapa’s Lam Rim Chenmo. Both presentations are indispensable in guiding students in meditation practice. If you have a spiritual teacher (guru) I would strongly encourage you to seek more advice from this person. There is nothing more valuable than the experiential knowledge of a guru to guide you in this. Even though it may seem that the texts are the only guide you need as they are so complete and all-encompassing, a guru will be able to guide you more aptly.
If you are still worried about going crazy, being possessed or even general obstacles in your practice, you should make prayers to a Dharma Protector on a regular basis to dispel obstacles and great conducive practice for you practice. This will be of tremendous benefit. If you have a guru you should request your guru for prayers to propitiate a Dharma Protector.
If you do not have a guru, I may suggest, the daily practices of Lama Tsongkhapa’s Guru Yoga and Dorje Shugden’s prayers can be invited from any of the Kechara Paradise outlets in Malaysia or online via Vajra Secrets, here is the link: http://www.vajrasecrets.com/diamond-path. This should help you meditations. I pray that your meditations are successful.