Question asked by Jason
I have made a promise to complete 100000 white dzambala mantras. I'm nearing the 50000 mark and I have started to nightmare consecutively. These nightmares have a similar theme of me getting murdered or me murdering someone over something valuable. By nature I'm not a violent person and I'm not a greedy person. The how perpose of me doing dzambala is to create the causes for me to have enough to go in to retreat. Is this a sign of purification or is there an obstacle or am i doing something wrong
Hello Jason,
Thank you for your message. Very sorry to read that you have been having such nightmares. There is no need to worry about these nightmares, you can take them as purification or simply your unconscious mind processing things in your sleep. Quite often the dreams we have are simply our minds working things out, but they appear as very strange and sometimes terrifying ways in our sleep. When you have such dreams, acknowledge the fact that you had them but then let them go, don’t think about them so much. You can think of it as purification, so be happy that you had the dream, instead of being scared or thinking you have done something wrong. Then continue on with your day and try not to think about them too much. Instead rejoice that you made such a promise and that you are fulfilling it every day when you recite the mantra.
Am I correct in assuming you are just reciting the mantra? Not any prayers or sadhanas of White Dzambala. Do you have any initiation into the practice or simply reciting the mantra? If you are just reciting the mantra, then there is no need to worry of having done anything wrong. You can keep reciting until you finish the mantra count. If you want to talk about this further, please email care@kechara.com and ask to be put in touch with a Pastor and inform them that you have already ask a question here.
If you still cannot let go of the feeling of being scared from the nightmares, then you can engage in Dharma Protector practice to help clear the obstacles and fear.
In general however, continue reciting the mantra. If you have an altar to White Mahakala, make offerings every day to the best of your ability and means. This will also be very helpful and generate a lot of merit for you. I sincerely rejoice for you for having made such a promise and your effort in completing the count. You have my prayers also that you will be able to go into a retreat. I hope this helps.