Question asked by Pecemaker
Dear Pastors
I have realized today, that i am not making enough money to meet the taxes on my house in September, because i am not getting enough work. i am in a state of fear and anxiety, but i did start some new prayers last night. I can feel “success’ around me, but my mind goes into doubt and pain, suddenly at times! I am so young and energetic….i don’t know why i cannot stay on top of my responsibilities……i don’t know what i will do about the money!
Sometimes i think i am TOO spiritual, and think that Heaven will just work everything out for me. I see MANY unexpected miracles in my life, but if i manage to get through this, somehow, i don’t think i will ever doubt again.
There are prayers and meditations i am starting to use. I also do Siddha Yoga (Kundalini Yoga)
and i invoke a different Archangel and a Boddhisattva every month,
and work on the Virtues and Vices. i also do self-psychology based on the Tibetan esoteric methods of Inner-Integration..
The new meditations keep me lifted, but i may be fooling myself to think everything is going to work out! I want to make a good livng and help people whie i am, but it seems i am disconnected with reality maybe, or just too impractical…….i don’t know. I want my living to support my Dharma and spiritual practice.
Bless you all and aall, Rinpoche and the Sangha!
I don’t want to cancel my prayers with doubt, ut some days it is hard to control!
I see you are posting quite a few resources which are not of our lineage. Please refrain from doing so. Also, we are not authorities of the other teachings and will not be in the position to comment on it.
It is good you are exploring different faiths. All religions has its strengths however it is the affinity one has towards it. I highly advice for you to keep reading the many uplifting articles here on this blogsite. Perhaps you may find the path helpful to you.
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