Question asked by Anaya
I got my spiritual initiation on May 21, 2022.
Since my initiation,i have had very beautiful experiences in meditation ( like seeing a beautiful light of the color of sunset and many more) i try my best to meditate everyday but i experiences strange fear and anxiety when i meditate in night. 🌙
This fear i very well know is deep rooted within my psyche because of the nightmares i have had before my initiation.In my dreams i saw dead relatives and horrible spirits who in my dreams tried to attack me.After my initiation I haven’t had such dark nightmares and my depression and anxiety have also reduced significantly.
I feel my fear is holding me back .
I happened to meet an enlightened master once, and he said it is my own bad karma that is manifesting as fear and anxiety and is a obstruction in my path.
I want to know if there is anything i can do to release myself off this karma.
My life was very traumatic but by the grace of my master, i have healed myself and learnt to let go.In the past few years i have transformed tremendously, i am no longer as angry selfish and restless as i used to be. I follow a lacto vegetarian diet and lead a celebate life.
I am a huge admirer of H.E. Tsem Rinpoche as he was the primary reason I started taking spirituality seriously. It was indeed his blessing and so is this initiation. 🙏❤️
Please guide
Love and blessings 🧿😇
Dear Anaya,
Yes, there are many ways to overcome this fear and negative karma. In general, it is the practice of the Dharma, but specifically it is purification practice and contemplation meditation. In order to get rid of completely you need to practice what is known as the Lamrim, it’s a graduated path of practice, from the very beginning all the way to the very end. It should be followed in sequence to be effective. We use a particular text, which you can find here: https://www.vajrasecrets.com/lamrim-liberation-in-the-palm-of-your-hand Each section should be studied and then contemplated upon to have a real impact.
However, the best method would be to consult the master that bestowed the initiation that you took, of whichever practice you do. You have a connection with that master, through that initiation, so you should consult him or her to guide you through this process properly.