Question asked by Eli Levine
Good evening Pastors,
I hope you're all well where-ever you are.
Lately I've been feeling like I'm not being productive enough or able to be productive enough. I'm stuck in a job that is slow and tedious, even though it may do some good for some people. I'm aware that it is a result of my karma to be here and to do the best work that I can do wherever I am. The job that I'm in now was the only job that accepted me. I'm also tired of watching world events being poorly handled by people who were chosen by others to lead. What it may boil down to is that I don't like the thought and feeling that I personally am going to be unable to help myself because of the lack of perception and poor choices of others. It would be one thing if I were to wake up dead in this universe and alive in another. However, I'm still here for some reason and still bound to get broken by a tidal wave that I'm not sure how I created. I know that karma is a subtle thing and that I, technically, have had control over all of it. However, I don't feel like I experience like that, and I feel more like a cork on the ocean rather than a swimmer, let alone, an able sailor on a solid ship. What am I doing wrong? How can I improve in a way that I'll be able and willing to follow through on?
I hope you're able to correct these mistaken views of mine, if they are mistaken.
Thank you.
Dear Eli,
You are right in feeling overwhelmed by your karma. That is a good realisation to have. We have so much negative karma from previous lives and most of us live without even realizing, just how much.
The way we begin to ride out the tidal wave is by focusing out towards others, developing virtuous attributes, letting go of pain, and out perception of future pain, while engaging in stable and consistent purification practices.